I am 5’4” or shorter I think I’m ugly I have many scars I tan easily I have a tattoo I am self-conscious about my appearance. I have/I’ve had braces I wear glasses. I’d get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free, scar-free I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger I have more than 2 piercings I have piercings in places besides my ears I had a serious surgery I’ve driven over 200 miles in one day I’ve been on a plane I’ve been to Canada I’ve been to Niagara Falls I’ve been to Japan I’ve Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans I’ve been to Europe I’ve been to Africa I’ve been in a play I’ve met someone in person from the internet I’ve eaten Sushi I’ve been snowboarding I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed I’m single I’m in a relationship I’m available I’m engaged I’m married I’ve gone on a blind date I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper I miss someone right now I have a fear of abandonment I’ve been divorced I’ve had my tonsils removed I am a cuddler I’ve been kissed in the rain I’ve had sex outdoors I’ve hugged a stranger I have kissed a stranger I have had sex with a stranger I’ve broken a bone I have been diagnosed with depression I shut others out when I’m depressed I take anti-depressants I have an eating disorder I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it I’ve hurt myself on purpose I was born with a disease/impairment I can sing well I open up to others too easily I have/had “x”s in my screen name I am in love with (the idea of) love I want to have kids someday I have children I’ve lost a child
Today i woke up at like 9 am, for no particular reason. Pretty much didn’t do anything till 3 pm. That is when I decided to go back to my old high school and help out my old cross country team. There isn’t much change since I left, team still pretty much sucks. No offence, there’s tons of stuff they need to work on. Then I went to my night class, where I found out that I didn’t do so well on my midterm. And my teacher only bases our grades on our midterm score and our final. So, I did the math and I can only get a B in the class. Sucks huh? Now, I am hella motivated to do homework everyday for every class and get my shit together. I am focused: good grades, train for track and field, and no unnecessary distractions.
I also figured out that I really don’t anyone close to me anymore. I pretty much lost contact with all my friends in high school, but that’s all my stupid fault. I don’t text or call people anymore. I really haven’t tried to get with a girl in a while, but that’s fine with me. I believe I’m moving onto bigger, better things. But this whole process can get pretty lonely? I d o n t k n o w, fuck it. Can’t complain, gotta aim high.